See ya later 1st Trimester, you will not be missed.

I’m currently living up my last week in first trimester in all its glory….. the official “pooch” peaking through, my choppy sleep almost every night, sore boobs, peeing all the time, being cold during the day, hot as shit at night, and having the energy literally sucked out of me, no one told me how much fun this would be! NOT.

In all reality, I can’t complain, compared to many woman, my first trimester was actually a breeze. I’ll never complain about a daily nap, because I am on team naps for life and they actually help my productivity out a lot. Aside from when I had COVID, and got hit with every early pregnancy symptom possible for 2 weeks ( see last blog), that was about as hard as it got. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t wish COVID and early pregnancy on anyone, but in hindsight, it was only two weeks and I made it out alive.

Since then, outside of having wavering energy, I feel pretty normal. I like to think the foundation of my health that I have worked hard to build over the past couple years and the nutrient-dense diet I already ate, really carried me through 1st trimester, and I am hoping it helps for the remainder of the time.

I’ll remain optimistic.

As far as my emotional stability, that’s another story. I feel like I’ve maintained a fairly stable mood. Tim might say otherwise, ha! I haven’t had huge moments of crying spells but there have been a few where I could just think about something sad, and immediately cry. I’ve also noticed by irritability is HIGH. Things that I could brush off before, really annoy the shit out of me. And since I am around Tim the most, he definitely felt the heat. Small things that I could generally let roll off my shoulders were driving me crazy, my dog whining, the internet taking forever to load, someone telling me the sky is blue. How dare you say the fucking sky is blue!

It’s hard to explain but it does feel quite uncontrollable. Tim and I have had to sit down and talk about it, I didn’t want him taking those things personally, and let him know it would be most supportive to me if he could find a way to let my irritability roll off his shoulders. He’s taking it like a true champ.

Another thing we’ve had to maneuver around that I didn’t really expect or know about, my sex drive was literally non-existent, zero, nada, negative 100. There was a moment that I was confident if I never had sex again I would totally be alright. I didn’t want to be touched or intimate. Thankfully this was only a month or so, but we had to consciously make an effort to get back towards intimacy. My mind was not into it, but if I could relax and let my body do the talking, eventually it started to come back. So, there’s that curveball! Tim survived the drought, in case you were wondering.

Let’s talk about the body changes, while they aren’t anything super pronounced and most people wouldn’t guess that I was pregnant, I won’t lie, I’m not a fan of my body changing and we are only 3 months in, yikes! From my magic growing boobs that somehow look like I got implants to a generally “softer” tummy than I am used to, it’s something that I will need to be more graceful with.

I feel like there’s pressure on woman to “embrace” this change. After all, you got pregnant, what did you expect to happen? But here’s the thing, I can want a baby, and not really like the process of being pregnant at the same time. You can feel both, and both are real and valid. I am being optimistic that maybe things will change when I feel more connected with the baby in my tummy, but who knows.

It doesn’t take away from the fact that I miss my good sleep and stable energy all day. It’s weird having things change that you have zero control over. Someone else literally took over my body, and it’s wild.

My diet has not really changed, after I had COVID, I definitely was eating more carbohydrates because it was more palatable to me, and in general, I still am probably eating a bit more than I usually do purely because it’s what I want. I’ve been enjoying fruits, potatoes, squash, and the occasional dessert or two. As always, my base remains animal-protein heavy. When you think about the nutrients that are most important to building another human, animal protein checks the boxes. I also feel like I am eating a little bit more, but it’s hard to say. My hunger has definitely showed up earlier in the morning. I also continue to increase my fish and seafood intake so this bean will come out lookin’ like hulk.

We’ve officially painted the baby’s room, can you guess what colors?? Black and white. I tried to expand my color palate, with no luck! I just love me some neutrals. I was pretty dead set on buying a brand new crib but Tim convinced me otherwise and we got an adorable, sturdy, almost brand new one off Marketplace for literally a fraction of the price and it turned out to be exactly what I wanted. Did I really need to spend $400 dollars on a crib that we may or may not use a lot? Probably not.

I’m impatient and I want to buy all the things know so I can be done with it, but I know I need to slow my roll and do a registry so people can help us out.

I finished my first two books, which I shared in my last blog, a HIGHLY recommend them. I am moving on to these too;

Birthing From Within- Amazon.com: Birthing from Within: An Extra-Ordinary Guide to Childbirth Preparation (Audible Audio Edition): Pam England, Rob Horowitz, Camille Mazant, Echo Point Books & Media, LLC: Books

Nourishing Traditions Baby and Child Care- The Nourishing Traditions Book of Baby & Child Care: Morell, Sally Fallon, Cowan, Thomas S.: 0884331252815: Amazon.com: Books

Oh! Lastly, and most important, we got the gender results back and will be doing a gender reveal with our close friends and family this Sunday! We don’t even know yet, the results went straight to my friend to handle the cupcakes. I am super excited to have this moment with everyone.

What do you think, boy or girl???